this I hunger

I hunger for a day when all of this is a distant memory
when I can look back in my rearview mirror and hardly see the remnants

I hunger for a day when my mind and heart beat at the same rhythm
when my mind does not play tricky games and my heart rules my head

I hunger for the meal without numbers, don't we all?
Only vitamins, nutrients, smells, tastes, life.

I hunger for the moment when everything aligns
and all I am living for and working for has definite meaning, without-a-doubt

I hunger for the year, the full year completely devoid of disorder
when I see, feel, listen, smell more clearly than ever before

I hunger for the week when I am not reminded of those times
those times when it was hard to breathe, those times I was scared

I hunger for the moment when I can tell someone else,
healing is possible. Don't lose hope just yet. Hang on, oh please hang on.

I hunger for the day I can help, help and not be helped
because I will be strong, wise, victorious and insightful

I hunger for the afternoon when I am tired,
I am tired and I listen, I listen and I realize, I realize and I allow rest

I hunger for the month when the only numbers in my head are rent and electric bills
one woman's burden is another woman's relief, in perspective


I hunger for the week I can escape reality completely and just go
to be intuitive, in the moment, thinking about nothing else, belonging no where else
but here, now


I hunger for the holiday that doesn't have calories and sugar
the holiday that only has fellowship, home, sweet, family.

I hunger for the day when I can read for two hours and be completely
completely and entirely focused, engaged, just two hours.

I hunger for the day when I can share my story
because it is in hindsight now I can see, I can reflect, I can embrace, I can identify.

I hunger for a day when I know what hunger means,
when it isn't that strange to say... hunger.

hunger (v): a strong desire or craving.

this I desire,

C